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musing - Qualified Perceptions
Something that ironrat said a month ago: "Two things that MIT taught me about myself while I was there are that 1) I am not a discoverer (which is to say, scientist) and I am not a creator (which is to say, engineer)." I think there's an implied 2 there, but I didn't post this to pick on his grammar.

Every so often, I encounter something that is so right, so perfect, that I keep coming back to it. Rarely, it's art, or music, or poetry (Some of you may remember being dragged by Soprafina to stare at the illegible text that I finally bought. Amusingly, none of you seem to remember my favorite poetry excerpt, except maybe for jadia, who has no idea why I'm bringing it up). Sometimes it's a thought, which this one is.

I'm not a scientist. I figured that out partway through grad school, but I just thought that it was because I was junk at it. It's not that I'm a bad scientist, it's that I wasn't ever that character class at all, but just didn't realize it. I'm an engineer. I want to create things. I want to create worlds and NPCs and javascript bus maps and sweaters and cassoulet and wikis and perl scripts that run poetry puzzles and photomorphs of people I know...

I'm not just a failed scientist, or a goof with too much spare time on her hands. I actually have a label!

This pleases me very much.

Current Mood: contemplative contemplative

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From: desireearmfeldt Date: September 18th, 2006 09:19 pm (UTC) (Link)
Hm... This speaks to me too, but I'm less sure than you of what character class it makes me.

I think of myself as "not an engineer" because I'm not a *tinkerer* or a *fixer* or a person fascinated by how things work; and also I'm not very good at spatial and physical stuff, and am more interested in people than in things. However, I'm definitely a "creator"--I don't create all the same things you do, but most of what I choose to do involves creating things (especially if you count something like a performance or a story told as a finished product = creation, and I think I do). And I'm happier in a job where my task is to produce products than, say, provide services or take care of problems or organize processes. But unlike you, I don't habitually create *everything*, or even imagine doing so; if I want a thing, my instinct isn't necessarily to make one, and if I want something to happen, my instinct isn't necessarily that there must be a tool I could create to solve the problem.

Like you, I am less a discoverer than a creator. I like solving puzzles and problems, but not obsessively; I like learning stuff, but I don't so much like searching the universe for knowledge, I prefer to have it presented for my consumption. And I'm less interested by "how it works" than "what happened and what it's significance was"--though I do have some interest in how it works.

I suppose it would be easy to label myself a "storyteller," but...it might be too easy. Hm.
From: desireearmfeldt Date: September 18th, 2006 09:20 pm (UTC) (Link)
(And I don't know the poem, but I expect I'll have it memorized by the end of the week at this rate. :) )
rifmeister From: rifmeister Date: September 18th, 2006 10:11 pm (UTC) (Link)
I wish I knew what character class I was.

I definitely have some Scientist, and some Engineer, and some Creator, and some Artist. Some Negotiator. Not very much Politician. But I don't think I have it nearly as figured as you do. You are awesome.
merastra From: merastra Date: September 19th, 2006 05:38 am (UTC) (Link)
That *is* interesting. I like that label for you. Actually, as desireearmfeldt and rifmeister implied, I do think that Creator and Engineer are different enough to warrant being listed separately. And you are definately a Creator and Engineer.
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From: desireearmfeldt Date: September 19th, 2006 03:39 pm (UTC) (Link)
Oh, I think I've always known that about myself. :)
twe From: twe Date: September 19th, 2006 07:57 pm (UTC) (Link)


The text may have been illegible, but it was kind of cool looking. (Do you actually know what it says?)
firstfrost From: firstfrost Date: September 19th, 2006 08:00 pm (UTC) (Link)

Re: Soprafina

I know what many of the words in it say - it's medicalish. Malady / remedy / blood and the like. Some I think isn't truly words, just things that look like words.
chenoameg From: chenoameg Date: September 22nd, 2006 04:41 pm (UTC) (Link)
I just reread this post and the ensuing comments, and it came upon me.

I am a Connector.

(Yes, I realize most people would call me a Nurturer, but I think that is only part of it.)

I think in analogies. I connect new ideas to old ideas. I connect people to each other. I connect data to people who need them. I weave webs of obligations between people. (I strain to fit feeding people into this allegory, but it's a means to an end. The feeding is what lures them in; the connecting to them is the point.)
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